Antigone Rising: She's Gone A Little Mad

Turn To Me

(P. Kokines/C. Henderson, 1996)

turn to me, turn to me
no reason to deny you
as i am lying here beside you turn to me. . . turn to me
no reason to forsake me,
can you hear me? i said take me. . . turn to me
turn this around, don't make a sound,
turn, turn it around. . . turn this around
turn to me, turn to me
my love will softly brace you,
as your fears surround and face you
turn to me, turn to me
i've been waiting here for hours,
held under your pwer. . . turn to me
have we ben here far too long, now?
don't you tell me that we're wrong. . .
turn around. . . turn to me

Sun Still Shines

(P. Kokines/C. Henderson, 1994)

there's frustration here, cause i can't let go
when you're far or near, my feelings still grow
it's hurting me, but both of us run
escaping from the inner truth of the rising sun
deep inside, the sun still shines
melting me with your smile so kind
when your eyes, your eyes meet mine
the sun still shines, oh it shines
the sun still shines
defenseless i sit and in you confide
part of me i cannot hide
the secret's gone, i have no control
it's my mind, my body and my soul
it frightens me, this feeling within
why does love always have to win
the feeling subsides, as the sun
then rises again, and the yearning comes
when will it stop and burn no more
my mind is tired and my heart is sore
i guess when the sun decides to never rise
and when never i gaze into your eyes
but i know, deep inside the sun still shines

Make Me Stay

(P. Kokines/C. Henderson, 1995)

struggling with emotion in this place
trying to keep my head above the water of your sin
i'm reminded of that look you get upon your face
as your hands cup a cigarette to a lighter in the wind
i'm sure I must have had that countenance
(mercy to your nature and hostage to the vice)
how could I've taken any other stance?
when all your love and anger is mine to have tonight
close the door on this conversation
it doesn't really matter anyway
slam the book on this old frustration
you can plead, pretend & promise me
-- that will not make me stay
lost in the maze of your reality
steering with a fury toward our inevitable end
this time I'm praying for some amnesty
divine intervention -- hush your logical defense
do you believe the words you scream?
i think we've been living in a dream
and this dream will not -- you won't -- it will never make me stay

I Know Nothin'

(C. Henderson, 1995)

well, i think, about things,
in fragments, with pictures
i get worried, i get happy,
iet nervous, then i get tired
when i think (i know everything)
but when i speak (i don't say very much)
feel like i know nothin'
well, who's there (who's knocking) to talk to?
well, who's there (who's ringing) when i call?
you're my best friend, you're my worst enemy
you're alwasy at my mercy to do what i want to do
well, that's good (do you think so?)
no, that's bad (light another cigarette)
feel like i know nothin'
feel like i know nothin'
caught in the crossfire between right and wrong
living the good life,
but can you tell me how long this is all gonna go on
taking for granted the time, the love, the passion i'm handed
it's a cool frustration if you use a bit of your imagination
it's a self relation -- it's a love that i'm chasing
(now, ain't that something)
so i live and i learn, and i'll take the best
and the worst of times
find the humor, ignore the pain
find the crazy, ignore the sane
hey, i'm here (make your mark now)
hey, i'm gone (some will cry and some won't care)
well, that's good (do you think so?)
no, that's bad (light another cigarette)
feel like i know nothin'

Alice (hey, darlin')

(P. Kokines/C. Henderson/S. Obolsky, 1994)

shaking off the school day, bounding home so fast --
she charges into her room and jumps into the looking glass
she knows the girl in there is where she belongs
(not just holding a hairbrush, singing someone else's songs)
she's just a young girl, but she knows where she wants to be
because in the mirror everything you dream is what you see
hey, darlin' i'm gonna take you away
hey, hey, my beautiful i'm gonna give what you crave
the part inside you protect so much
the part that crumbles in love's cruel name
i'll make tremble with a single touch
oh, let me, let me light that flame
shakin' off the work day, feeling like she's losing time
she glances into the mirror and sees the girls she left behind
the rent is late, the phone's turned off -- her broken heart won't mend
she stares into the glass and looks at her oldest friend
she's not such a young girl, but she knows where she wants to be
because in the mirror everything the dream isn't always what you see
hey darlin' -- where're you going?
hey darlin' -- where've you been?
hey darlin' -- where you're going to
hey darlin' -- where you've been
the sun goes down as she walks along the shore
the woman she's become is the girl she'd seen before
oh, the little girl inside can feel the sand between her toes
wher the road will take here only she can know
she's not such a young girl, but she knows where she wants to be
because in the mirror everything you dream has got to be what you see

Bitter Song

(K. Henderson, 1996)

there used to be laughter, there used to be trust
but now there is nothing between us
you broke my heart when you told me that lie
another love over, another love dies
i turned to you, but you turned away from me
after all that i've done, and all that i've proven to be
i gave you my heart and i gave you my soul
but you gave it back to me
swallowed my pride, but you couldn't see
you taught me to live, you taught me to love
but that's in the past now, that isn't enough
you broke my heart once, you won't break it again
i'll prove you wrong now -- i won't come back again
i looked in your eyes, but you looked away from me
after all that i've done, and all that i've proven to be
i held out my hand and i held out my heart
but you gave it back to me
swallowed my pride, but you couldn't see
i'm a little bit older now, and a little bit wiser now
i can look back now, and see my mistakes
you weren't my first love, and you won't be my last love
just another chapter in my book of mistakes

Someone Said

(K. Henderson, 1996)

someone said
peaceful waters are for fairy tales -- perfect dreams
but not everything is what it seems
once upon a time, there was nothing left to
what meets the eye, no time to lie
-- just do your best to try to survive
people say she's lost her mind
she's gone a little mad, we'll miss her, we'll feel sad
it's one less mouth to feed -- for that we're glad
someone said abandon ship before you all go down --
don't hand around
your friends have all left you they're safe on the ground
people say she's split in two
there's nothing left to do, but try to muddle through
i'm doing the best that i can, so why can't you?
someone said they'll watch you bleed profusely, out of control,
turn blue and cold -- you'll wnader the earth a restless soul
people say she's lost control
a park bench is her home, she's filthy, her mouth foames
wanders the streets and curses as she roams

Trial

(P. Kokines/C. Henderson, 1996)

crawling toward the water on my hands and knees
begging for the secrets in the witchy breeze
does the water drown you the way it sucks me down?
will i hear your message if my ear's pressed to the ground?
the waters' still. . . the breeze will come
the earth will tremble. . . our trial's begun
will it drag you to me, or will it push you on?
can you see through me, in your world of calm?
do we want to be distrubed here, do we want to kiss that fear?
iknow your poison and your cure, and i am still right here
i am your temptor and your angel
don't forget who brought you here
tell me that you can breathe without it:
the place in me that caught your fear
the water's still. . . the breeze will come
the earth will tremble. . . our trial's begun

Fire On The Streets

(K. Henderson, 1995)

i don't think she's rising -- she's afraid of the fall
sometimes i know her, and then not at all
maybe she's stupid, with her brand new ideas
or blatantly foolish for having no fears
but we all make mistakes, we all have ideas
some we may act on, but most disappear
now that you've played out your brand new charade
don't be surprised at your rained out parade
well we all have ideas, some big ideas
people beware, there's a fire on the street
children be wary of who you may meet
i know that you mean well -- it's all well & good,
but i've had enough for one year
she's usually selfless, except in one case
how can you blame her? it's too much to face
we all do believe what she feels to be true
and see how she got there with all she's been through
so 1 time she's selfish at least it's not 2
now that she's told us, and got mixed reviews,
there's no second guessing what she has to do
most times i know her, but for this i'm unsure
if it is true love, it may be the cure
well we all have ideas -- let's leave it at that

Lonely Tonight

(K. Henderson, 1995)

close your eyes -- try to imagine
a time & a place, when none of this mattered
let go of your frustration,
it won't get your through any situation
mistakes are made to leave behind, so let them go
but if you're lonely tonight
look inside yourself, there you'll find me
and if you're lonely tonight
present is not past, set yourself free
young & innocent, that is what you are
you've got nothing to fear
look before yourself, and change what you need
that's all you have to do
time is on your side, sit back if you want to and glide
look ahead, don't look behind or live to fast or on rewind
remember you're not alone in this world anymore
i'm behind you and beside you and inside you
i'll surround you, i will ground you,
build my whole world around you
i will need you, i will lead you,
never beg borrow or bleed you
i will hold you, i will mold you,
never tell you that i told you
i would lie for, i would cry for,
i would probably even die for
i will catch you, i will fetchyou,
don't believe me -- then i'll be you
(let me catch my breath)
are you lonely tonight. . . don't be lonely tonight
are you lonely. . . don't be lonely

Me And Julio*

(P. Simon)

Penelope Kokines -- lead vocals
Cathy Henderson -- guitar/vocals
Kristen Henderson -- drums/percussion/guitar & vocals on live tracks
Suzanne Obolsky -- vocals
Autumn Worthington -- bass